I know that i’m not the only one who find it pretty scary to grow up. As a child you only wish to grow older and get responsibility, but when you are so close to being an adult, “resposibility” suddenly sound very different. I guess it’s the idea of responsibility that scares most people, me included. But why? If i really think about it, what is it then, that i think will happen to me? Absolutely nothing! So many other people have managed to do it, so why shouldn’t I?
I guess you shouldn’t think too much about it, sometimes it’s okay if you just want to watch cartoons and build showmen.
I read something the other day, about this philosopher called Sartre. He believed that the existence and the essence of a person wasn’t connected, and that the essence of a man would change as a result to the choices he make. This is why it is so much harder to write a letter to you, than to 14 year old me, because i already know what the essence of 14 year old me was, and what the essence of me today is.
I can’t really tell you anything, like i could with 14 year old me, can i? It is you that have something to teach me. I hope that you’re happy, and i hope you held on to everything that was worth it.
Dear 14 year old me
I don’t want to warn you about all the bad things that are coming,because i definitely think they have made me become who i am today. Instead i want to tell you what you have to look forward to, cause even though you’re might not happy at the moment, you will be.
You are going to meet some amazing people in the future. They will become the reason why you are getting out of bed in the morning, and they will make you smile, please trust them.
Sometimes you have to let go of something you really care about, even though it might seem like the hardest thing in the world, but it is totally worth it.
This is a weird observation, and i don’t know if it is true. But lately i noticed,that when girls want to get a guy who’s already with a girl they often say hello and shake hands with their “opponent”(mostly drunk girls of course). It makes me feel like a toad when it happens, it is like they are thinking “fair enough, you’re uglier than me, no problem”. From my latest posts i might seem kinda pathetic, but that is not what i wan’t you to think. I just feel so indifferent next to him. I am not the princess, i am the toad…or am i? Because it’s the princess who gets the prince right?
Im 17 years old, and i’m in a place in my life where everyone i know will soon move on in alot of different directions. Maybe someone will move to a bigger town to find better education oppertunities, or maybe some will travel.
Until a short while ago i had never thought about it, but then a friend of mine mentioned it, and now i find it pretty scary. It is dangerous to fall in love at this point in life, you could find someone and have the most amazing 6 months in your life, but then on the other side, it would hurt just as much when you had to say goodbye. Would it be worth it?